ha..someone's actually dropped by...

i dropped by to take a look at the tagboard and i have 1 new tag...rather refreshin to see that someone does occasionally drop by to see if ive gotten off my lazy arse to write summat'. well i was thinkin bout it and then i thought..na..i'll wait a bit longer..and then i actually got a request..more like a reason not to continue with chem tutorial but even then..ha.

well for me as per normal..erythin's a tad bit confusin..something happened..dont really know what but i know it aint good...hopefully in the end it'll turn out alrite..though i have been talking to loadsa new folks quite often recently and it feels good to get to know people who i see nearly eryday beyond the superficial level..and yea it feels good when you finally understand why things are the way they are when you find out more..amidst the enlightenment though was the warning of the math test..completely blew it..i know it..my tutor knows it..i'm actually rather impressed at his unsurmountable patience..especially with me..'cos he knows i can do well...and he only see's that when marks are not counted..sad isnt it? ha..at least now with erythin coming to a standstill i can start studyin..as much as i dont want to acknowledge 'em, the promos are coming and in 28 days mind you..james' nick reminds me eryday when log on to msn. ha..alrite then, thanks to the folks who've helpd me out o late..and for all those who've made life alot more interestin..and id like to actually thank you (go back to your chem apres ca) cos i never did after the whole bazaar disaster :)..and not just for that..but most importantly for being a friend. Merci beacoup mademoiselle.

its coming

its been 7 whole months (and a bit more) since we got here..doesnt it feel longer..at the same time its amazin how much has happened o'er 7 months..ha..ok forget that..lately its sunk in that in bout 40 days the promos are comin...and surprisingly enough...weird things are happenin...people who've never really bothered to study too much are makin the library their second home..the councillors...mug in the morn..cos apparently with all the stuff's thats coming up...we dont have the luxury of afternoons and evenings in air con with all the notes that people try to make sense of. where do i figure in all o this..no where really..i've been wanting to mug, and for reasons of other work, havent been able to..however when i do get back and the opportunity does arise for me to look thru' the incomprehensible doodles that comprise of my notes, i'm either not able to focus..or i just dont want to...and the mornin after i wonder what the hell went thru my mind..and the whole thing kinda repeats..well kinda...other than that life's been alright..i'm sensing an internal struggle but cant really figure out what it is..ha..sounds lame?..well i dont have to explain it to ya now do i?

ps. i wanna holla at a good friend o mine who has been kindly requestin for an update for a while, ha..sorry bout that, so for all the delays, this one's dedicated to you mademoiselle..and thanks for being there for me :)

for now its all over...stop worrying bout everythin on the board and just focus..if it's to happen it might..but later...for now its done. been slowly easin in to life in rj and yea its taken 7 months for total comfort and for those lookin at this and wonderin...think about your own journey...it might not have been as long but definitely longer than you'd have expected...maye im wrong..but i dont really care :) oh well..for those who expect to see more emotional stuff on this blog i'm going to have to say look elsewhere. to the folks on my board, thanks for erythin, but it ends here.

friends you'll come to realise are too valuable to lose..glad i got one back.