so perfect...

its rare or almost never that you find a song in which the lyrics say everything you want to say and so much more. i found one, be it by accident. its a song by james blunt entitled 'tears and rain'

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

yea...beautiful isn't it? and yet there is pain, darkness,guilt and doubt...see what you can from it, life's open to perception. see if you can relate to it. if ya can then hang in there cos there is someone else who's going through the same thing. if not, smile and enjoy yourself, but always remember that there are those sufferrin...just reflect.

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honesty...

honesty is this weird thing that not everyone appreciates but something i value more than anythin else. there are times when people don't want to be told the truth if it hurts, but i feel that's when one should not be oblivious to the truth but confronted and enlightened on how things really roll. for me something happened recently and i'd like to thank you for being honest with me. we made mistakes and i didn't see it, so thank you for clarifying the situ. when something like that happens yea people don't tend to take it well and for that i need to apologize, cos I might have said something or reacted in a way i might not have meant which was really unfair of me cos i didnt acknowledge the guts, and concern for me ya had to bring it up and clear the air. and yea so this is my apology if i made ya feel bad in any way, and i'm glad that we're still friends cos you would'nt have lost anything,it would've have been my loss. Thank you again for caring.

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what happened?

Something good. Ya know when life makes it really hard for ya, ok everyone in school can relate to that but stick in there and hang on, cos when the going gets tough, fate realises what you're going through and gives ya something great. And no not something small that might distract ya from ya misery for a while, something that'll stay with you for as long as you can make it work.and that feels really great. I'm not one who believes too much in god but for this one i gotta holla and thank the dude upstairs.that plus the rather relaxed hols have been rather rejuvenating for me.past few weeks have been rather depleting and i needed this, thanks :) Life though goes on and yes there are still ya ups and downs? though i am rather miffed that spore still hasnt realised the true meaning of hols. hols=no school, for most of us today hols = half the time in school. yea im being all maths and what not but im in a good mood and i shall do as i choose. though there still is time to meet up with folks ya havent seen in a while and catch up, now thats what the hols are all about.

keep the faith, we'll make it

Confused

Its all coming at me too fast and I'm scared that I might not be able to take all of it. There comes a point in life where one needs to re-evaluate what in my case he is doing and look to what could become of the situation. Is the risk reasonable?calculated or just plain suicidal? The thing is I don't know yet. I've taken this road that is unfamiliar in so many ways that it no longer appears to be the exhilarating ride I thought it would be but instead this dangerous path where there are so many obstacles, a new one emerging with every one overcome. Did I make a mistake, everything around me tells me that I didn't, but how do I know for sure. I'm doing things that I have never done before and for that I feel great but does it mean that it'll go on this way? First a completely new subject combination and so far its been manageable. Leadership is something that I've been told I can do but never had the experience in, so this year I hope I get into council and see for myself, what I can do for others. Competitions, I didn't get into SIMUN but now Pre U Sem is something that ive taken a real interest in. Working for that is gonna be awesome but again i wonder to myself, what will it do to me? My health is something that has never been on my side cos of my leg and blood sugar problems, exhaustion and burnout seems imminent, and I stand here waiting for it, not doing anythin to prevent it, if only i could. I'd call for help but thats selfish, either way, who would help? and how can they?Dont understand or like my entry? read the title, it should explain itself.

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