Confused

Its all coming at me too fast and I'm scared that I might not be able to take all of it. There comes a point in life where one needs to re-evaluate what in my case he is doing and look to what could become of the situation. Is the risk reasonable?calculated or just plain suicidal? The thing is I don't know yet. I've taken this road that is unfamiliar in so many ways that it no longer appears to be the exhilarating ride I thought it would be but instead this dangerous path where there are so many obstacles, a new one emerging with every one overcome. Did I make a mistake, everything around me tells me that I didn't, but how do I know for sure. I'm doing things that I have never done before and for that I feel great but does it mean that it'll go on this way? First a completely new subject combination and so far its been manageable. Leadership is something that I've been told I can do but never had the experience in, so this year I hope I get into council and see for myself, what I can do for others. Competitions, I didn't get into SIMUN but now Pre U Sem is something that ive taken a real interest in. Working for that is gonna be awesome but again i wonder to myself, what will it do to me? My health is something that has never been on my side cos of my leg and blood sugar problems, exhaustion and burnout seems imminent, and I stand here waiting for it, not doing anythin to prevent it, if only i could. I'd call for help but thats selfish, either way, who would help? and how can they?Dont understand or like my entry? read the title, it should explain itself.

Om Bare Jeg Kan