new beginning?

its been a rough end to a long and probably one o' the busiest times o' me life. personally i've had problems..yes ok fine..i have had for the first time in my life, problems which have seriously rocked my world. concentration has been affected and dozd off in class for the first time..yea i know it doesn' sound like much but its had a rather drastic impact on me life..not as alive as i used to be. apologies to everyone who's had to put up with everythin. yh,roy,j'ssa,dt,kz,alish,my entre group, 26th's, in particular..thanks guys for patience & understandin'. i hope that with the end o' the term this problem fades..don't wanna burden anyone else anymore..but yea there's something i learnt..if ya feel for someone, seeing 'em happy really lifts ya even when ya have no involvement..i guess the only problem is when that person doesn' know..and you both want them to know..at the same time..don't wanna take the risk of losin a friendship o'er it. forget it...move on..thats what i've promised myself and my friends..thats what i'll do.

Det Er Hva Jeg Gjøre

Don't give in..

'Cause sometimes you just feel tired. You feel weak. And when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up. But you gotta search within you, try ta find that inner strength and just pull that shit out of you, and get that motivation to not give up, and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse. '

and when you do that, sometimes your body just gives up on ya either way...and thats when you really hate yourself. when you know that you need to do that bit more, and mentally you've got the strength to go on..then ya blackout. your folks tell ya that your being dumb pushing yourself like this..your grades'll suffer...you might not make it. but then i think about it...i know i can. I know that i'm only human..been reminded of that too many times. but I dont care...I aint doing it for meself,its for those who matter to me. recently ive got to know someone who does mean quite a bit to me...perhaps thats where i find strength to go on...hopefully this doesnt stop at where it is cos your really mean o so much to me...its not like anythin ive known before and it took a lot for me to say that cos ive been really blessed in my lifetime..

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